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12 August 2011 @ 12:05 pm
You Can Run 5/6  
Fandom: F1, ski jumping
Pairing: Sebastian Vettel/Jaime Alguersuari, Sebastian Vettel/Mark Webber, mentions of Webber/Button, a bit of Sebson, Thomas Morgenstern/Gregor Schlierenzauer
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Kind of violence (I suck at writing violence, so it's not much), death
Genre: AU, drama
Disclaimer: I don't own these people, though I do own the plot. This has only ever happened inside my head (well, obviously).


Jaime was a bit afraid to return to the office he had been working in before Mark found out about him and Sebastian. He didn’t really know why he was going there or what he was doing there, but Mark had told him he should go there to wait for him to give him the official permission to leave the Red Bull concern for eternity. He wasn’t allowed to have a job there anymore, that was for certain.

Jaime walked into the office quietly, because he didn’t want to disturb Thomas’s work. He knew that Thomas needed silence to be able to concentrate on his work properly and he hated any disturbs. However, Thomas wasn’t working when Jaime stepped into the room, which surprised him. Jaime would have never expected to see what he was seeing at that very moment.

Thomas was cuddling on the sofa with some younger man who Jaime had never seen before. Jaime was certain this man was his replacement. However, the physical closeness of those two seemed to tell a completely different story, because if someone then Thomas should have been aware of the fact that Red Bull concern frowned upon relationships too close between its workers. Especially when Thomas was a higher level worker than Gregor.

The whole scene just seemed so against everything Thomas believed in. He wasn’t doing his work, even though it was working time, his desk was messy with unfilled forms waiting to be filled and he was getting too close with a co-worker. For a while Jaime was wondering, if this was still the same Thomas who he had been working for.

Jaime didn’t really want to disturb the kiss of the two men, but he felt like he had to make his presence known. “Erm, good morning,” he said a bit awkwardly. Thomas looked horribly shocked. He tried to get as far as possible from Gregor on the small sofa they were sitting on. Gregor looked only confused, as he didn’t know who this guy was who was disturbing them and what he was doing there.

“This… is… not what it looks like!” Thomas tried. Gregor rolled his eyes at him.

“It is exactly what it looks like,” he said.

Jaime smiled. “It’s okay Thomas, really.”

Thomas sighed. “Alright then. You know what Jaime? You should have never left me. This guy walked into my life and turned everything upside down. Almost literally.”

“Oh I thought it was good that somebody came to make you realize that life isn’t all about working,” Gregor said.

“Well, I guess so then.”

“I thought you liked me.”

“I do, I do like you. A lot. Actually, I feel like I might just love you.”

Gregor gulped. He didn’t know if he was ready to admit that strong feelings, but it really felt like he had to say the words back to Thomas.

“I… I’m not sure,” Gregor muttered. They were now looking at each other, forgetting completely that Jaime was still standing there in front of them.

“I understand. You are still young. I don’t expect you to commit yourself to such strong feelings or in a relationship this unsure. I mean, we could be separated any minute. The Red Bull concern doesn’t like these kinds of relationships between its workers,” Thomas said. Even though he meant what he said, he couldn’t help but feel a bit sad that Gregor couldn’t return his words and feelings.

“I think it’s best for us, if we don’t take any pressure from this. If we just keep it casual. I know you need everything to be exact and orderly in your life, but I came to break that pattern. So maybe we could just… let things go naturally. I mean, not make it any kind of an official relationship, just be together at times, have sex and stuff like that, if you know what I mean,” Gregor spoke. He seemed very relaxed, even though Jaime was in the room listening to them.

“I guess you’re right. But oh, I completely forgot that you were still here,” Thomas said to Jaime when he noticed him again. He was blushing a bit as he looked at the smiling man standing there.

“I told you, it’s okay. It’s great to see that you have found yourself someone to get your mind off work sometimes,” Jaime said with a grin.

“I’m still a bit nervous about this. Why did I let myself fall in love with this boy?” Thomas wondered out loud. Gregor was grinning and holding Thomas’ hand.

“You cannot decide who you fall in love with. I feel like my love for Sebastian has also caused too much trouble, but I can’t help but feel love every single time I see him. He is the love of my life.”

***

“I love you,” Mark stated firmly. Sebastian was sitting opposite him across the desk. Mark seemed very certain of his emotions now. However, Sebastian had no idea about his own. He wasn’t sure, if he loved Mark or Jaime or anybody at all.

“How is that gonna change things then?” Sebastian asked.

“I don’t know. I honestly don’t. All I know is that I love you. I don’t think the higher officers will appreciate it though, if I had a relationship with you. And I don’t even know if you’d want to be in a relationship with me.”

“I don’t know it myself either,” Sebastian said with a sigh.

The silence in the room didn’t last for too long. However, it was neither of the two men deep in their thoughts who broke the silence. It was the opening of the door and the man who invaded the room.

“You killed Jenson, didn’t you?”

It was Lewis, and he looked raged. He had fire burning in his eyes and he was looking at Mark like he would kill him any minute. The fact that he was holding a gun didn’t really make the situation more comfortable for anyone in the room.

“It was an accident,” Mark defended. Sebastian looked at Lewis like he had seen a ghost. Mark however seemed to think he had the situation in control. His face was calm and showed no emotion at all and his voice was firm and sure.

“An accident? Do you really think I believe in that shit? You can tell your fairytales to kids, but I don’t believe in them,” Lewis spitted.

“It WAS AN ACCIDENT. I would have never killed him on purpose. Even though he was threatening Sebastian and saying such unforgivable things about him…” Mark stopped speaking, because he was afraid that he would get angry as well if he thought too much about what Jenson had said.

“Sounds like you had a motive then.”

“You can’t possibly be here to kill me. Any minute I can call the guards and they will give you death sentence. You are a wanted activist.”

Lewis took hold of Sebastian and forced him to stand up. “If you call the guards, I’ll kill him,” he threatened. Sebastian sighed. He had had enough of having a gun pointed at his head already, even though the first time it had been a plan he had made with Jenson. He felt a bit guilty for drawing Jenson into this, because now Jenson was dead and Lewis was here threatening them.

“I think there’s no way you can win in this situation. This is a bit stupid, you do understand that, don’t you?” Mark asked.

“The only thing I understand is that you fucking killed the only friend I fucking had. You killed my boss and a great man. You are fucking monster, who would do anything to stay in power.”

“I didn’t do it for power. Jenson has never threatened my power, has he?”

“Why then? Oh yes, for this boy here. I still don’t understand what everybody sees in this fucking kid. Maybe I should just shoot him and then nobody would have to be bothered by him anymore.”

Mark looked shocked. “No, no, please don’t kill him.”

“Oh it is this boy then. You love him, don’t you? Jenson always said that, but I’m not sure if he’s any better. He was fucking this boy every fucking night.”

“But please, I’m begging you, don’t kill him.”

Sebastian looked at Mark who had tears in his eyes. This seemed like a very serious situation and it certainly had brought Mark’s feelings from underneath. Sebastian could see the love now, it was there in Mark’s eyes and his tears. Sebastian bit his lip and hoped that things would go well and Lewis would leave them both unharmed.

“Should I or should I not? Oh that’s a good question,” Lewis asked with a mischievous smirk. He knew he had the situation in control now, because he had gotten a firm hold of Mark’s feelings.

“It’s not him you want, it’s me,” Mark pleaded.

“Yes, you are right. It’s you I want. But will you, cold, selfish and heartless Red Bull power figure, actually sacrifice your life for love?”

“Love seems to be a swear word around here, but I think this is when I actually come to realize its true meaning.”

“And you think its true meaning is to play with your own life?”

“No, its true meaning is that you will give everything to see your love happy and alive. Even your own life.”

Lewis looked at Mark like Mark had gone crazy. Mark took his hands of the button, which would have activated the call for the guards.

“Take me and promise me you won’t hurt Sebastian. You don’t need to hurt him, when you have me, do you?” Mark said very seriously and firmly. He knew he had to do this and he was willing to do this for Sebastian.

Sebastian looked shocked. He had lost all of his words, but if he had had them, he would have told Mark not to do it. However, it was too late. Lewis kicked him on the floor and he could hear the shot. He flinched as he saw Mark fall on the floor, not far from where he himself was crouching. As he hurried his way to Mark who was bleeding on the floor, he could see Lewis’ feet disappear out of the room from the corner of his eye.

“No, no, no, I need to find a doctor. This is just… You can’t die,” Sebastian mumbled still in shock.
Mark smiled weakly. “It’s okay. I did this to save you and I guess this is the only way I could’ve ever showed you my love. I don’t think love really suits me,” he said.

There were tears in Sebastian’s eyes as he looked at Mark unable to say or do anything. He wanted to save the older man, but he knew there was no way he could do that.

“To see your tears, that makes me feel like my love wasn’t wasted after all. Just… let me kiss those sweet lips of yours for the one last time, that’s all I ask for,” Mark said quietly. It felt like he was so close to losing his life that he couldn’t speak more loudly.

Sebastian bent down to kiss Mark as gently as he could. When he parted, Mark’s eyes were lifeless. Sebastian closed his eyes, took in a deep breath and tried to hold back his tears. However, soon he was sobbing more than he had ever imagined he would cry over Mark’s death. It was just that Mark wasn’t evil, as Jenson had said. He had just been in love with him. And Sebastian knew what love felt like. Especially when he could hear his beloved breathing in the same room.

“What happened?” was the quiet question coming from the other side of the room, where Jaime was standing next to the door he had just opened. Sebastian couldn’t make any words to answer, but Jaime was already embracing him tightly. They just sat there next to Mark’s dead body with Jaime kissing away Sebastian’s tears as they kept falling.
 
 
 
josefinssmilejosefinssmile on August 12th, 2011 07:42 pm (UTC)
I'm happy to see Thomas and Gregor together - even if they are not together properly... I hope they will be happy in the end!
And Mark... I can't believe he did this! But after he killed Jenson he deserved it, I guess.
Your story is still fantastic and I really love your style!:]
Пургуруangiebird on September 2nd, 2011 04:14 am (UTC)
HI. I from Russia. My written English isn't good. But I will try to express my thoughts.
It's so sadly, painfully, hurt. That's how much I love. It made my heart constrict.
Poor Jens
Poor Mark
They are two of my favorite of the three men in F1 (another Michael Schumacher)
Poor Seb
Poor Jaime
(They are two of the most beloved of a few favorite boys in F1)
(Nico Rosberg is my favorite woman xD
*joke*)

Only Thomas and Gregor seems OK. But with your imagination, with them may happen that something bad.
I'm alarmed
I am also very interested in what happens in the end. Jaime reaction? How Will Sebastian live?
I want to read the last chapter.
Thanks. It's amazing story.